oops forgot to site the quote, -10 points...
it's an actualism quote from here:
http://www.actualfreedom.com.au/richard/articles/attentivenesssensuousnessapperceptiveness.htmAs for trying to rephrase my question I am having a really hard time, i've now written out 3 rephrasings and deleted them, hopefully the 4th time works.
It seems like there are two "awarenesses" there is the background awareness which constantly cognizes all of sensate experience, and there is the focused awareness which seems to look at parts of this in more detail. This intuitive interpretation is apparently false, because when is not using the focused awareness, everything is seen simultaneously in clear detail. So what is actually happening? The intuitive turning and focusing "mental camera" is apparently a misunderstanding.
What I have for a while thought was ACTUALLY happening was that the impression of focus is given by an affective "blanket" being fabricated on top of everything not being focused on, but if the background awareness takes in everything simultaneously in clear detail then why isn't the blanket simply cognized simultaneously along with the actual experience?
This experience of both things being simultaneously cognized happens for me when i attempt to "allow consciousness to arise" and simply be receptive to everything, but what exactly is "being receptive?"
If that doesn't work i am totally willing to give up trying to explain my question as it doesn't seem to have practical relevance anymore for some reason.