recently i had this issue with being investigated by authority over suicidal thoughts

and i am down and sad, upon going to lie down on bed, some scene which happens in my past life appear where a guy and a girl sitting by the river at night and their hands are making some silloutte mimicking butterfly and i was standing behind them where they sat together

the scene is absolutely real, and the sign they make seems to tell me they love each other and i was filled with emotions of being in love with one of them, either its the guy or the girl which i am unsure

but i felt tremendous sadness or grief looking at the scene...